Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Time

No matter how hard I try, I can't get a hold of the time... I have really tried. I clear my mornings, I clear my afternoons, but they don't stay cleared. There are an innumerable number of worthy, and even extremely worthy ways to encroach upon the time I am trying to dedicate to creative endeavours. I've read, planned, carved, scheduled, tracked, promised, committed - done all sorts to save the time... but it always withers away. There isn't time to get ready in the morning, eat, tidy, write an email, take a call, let alone the avalanche of 'everything else' that follows. The 'everything else' (wrong word but can't come up with another...things, people, events, appointments, errands, etc.)  that call are important and I want them in my life... I choose them, but I want a little creative time, and I can't get it to consistently happen.

To do it I would have to get militant, as in "Do Not, Under Any Circumstances, Call, Write, Interact, or Ask Me Anything etc.,  Before 1 PM Ever.", or, and maybe this is the key, accept that the only time I really have to myself is late at night, and just schedule that time for myself. The problem is that I am tired often by then, so I looked, (longed) for the morning time... but I'm not an early morning person, so that is the crux. By the time I'm ready - it's 11 AM and the encroaching occurs shortly thereafter... If I could save 11-1 PM that would be 2 hours... it's hard my friends... it's hard.

This is a quote that I like from Kathleen Norris' book called The Cloister Walk, which is quoted in the book Found: A Story of Questions, Grace & Everyday Prayer: Micha Boyett
(previous post):

"Norris describes a monastic perspective that perceives time as a gift to be welcomed, not an enemy to be wrestled."

I wrestle still, I wrestle. I try not to... do things in the spirit if Huggye, yet for this creative time that I crave, I wrestle.







1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Yay! You're blogging again! I love the snippets from this article on how Minerva Teichart made time for her art:

"But her main artistic outlet was her murals, to which she’d add strokes between chores. “She was a multitasker—big time,” says Wardle. “She’d be cooking at the stove and walk around [the corner] and put some brush strokes on the painting.” At night, once her children were asleep, Teichert gave her paintings full attention. She’d sometimes adjust the clocks to get them to sleep sooner."

https://magazine.byu.edu/article/minerva-teichert/

And this article made me realize I have to stop waiting for the ideal conditions before I begin working on my personal projects:

http://project-based-homeschooling.com/camp-creek-blog/learning-to-use-time-you-have

It's a work in progress but I'm trying to just seize the moments I have, however short, and trusting they will add up to a greater whole and that I will become better over time at making those moments go farther.